05.07.09

i held my tears back on the last walk of funeral while i witness those who cried.
throughout the whole 5 days,
it wasnt good.
because im tearing for the wrong reason,
that very reason..
i feel bad for my grandpa but its just in my head,
to have it colliding with yours,
im sorry
because im the one causing it.

so i guess,
its gonna take a longer time than what i expected,
because youre the first i remembered when i woke up..
neither food,
nor toilet,
i dont know why..
all i know for now is that, its not gonna be an easy one.
im hoping time will pass faster,
because i know the things i'll be doing sooner or later would be unfair to you..
or should i say mean?
maybe its just me..
but i hope you would not mind because its not on purpose.
and i thank you for everything you've given to me which i took it for granted..
thank you so much!
its my fault afterall so.. (:

stefanie chua is soooo gonna get over it!
dont think so much.
SMILE SMILE SMILE!
:) :) :) :) :) :) :)
:D :D :D :D :D
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thank you steph, gladys, alicia because i know you'll be there when i need you.
and of course km waikin ky for all you've done.
thank you so much people!