18.06.09

mummy,
why do you give birth to me in the first place?
to someone who aint capable like sister.
someone so useless that she cant even do anything at all.
someone who is always hurting others instead,
making them suffer.
someone who aint smart.
someone who is hopeless.
someone who is lazy a hundred and zillion times.
someone who aint good at anything.
someone who wastes the earth's resources.
someone who always causes troubles.
someone whom you raised up just to waste your money and effort.
someone who doesnt listen to your words.
someone who acts against you.
someone whereby she wish she wasnt born in the first place.
even though this someone still loves you,
but why, mummy, why.
i feels like my heart is tearing apart..
that i wish i could just die the sooner the better.
mummy, it would have been better to let go of what you have been holding on to.
i wish i could have let go too,
of everything i have.

im sorry,
because im a huge disappointment to you.
i should have never stepped foot in your life in the first place.
its my fault..
but all i know is that i really love you deep in my heart.
i love you