29.06.09

maybe im tired.
cause im thinking weirdly now,
how i wish things didnt happen that way for you
how i really wish..
goodnight.

28.06.09

went for orientation at jurong safra gym with gladys
and we were late!
its pretty & big that place.
lets go visit the kids amaze(i think) next time.
it looks damn funny can!
its really big too! i think its about 2 storeys high!
staff there are nice too for today wise, haha.
ended our orientation at 2.15 before we head to jp for subway
oven roasted chicken breast is yummie!

took mrt then 52 then 851 down to bugis
maybe to NLB first
spend alittle time there reading book before finding quack who ends work at 8
walked around alittle, but since i've school the next day,
we cant watch movie even if we want!
so sad D:
but quack is nice enough too!
since i didnt wanna go back home early, i went to his house to slack and watch a&d!

and sorry alicia!
didnt manage to go down to ls, if only i knew you would definitely be making your way down..
would have bought cheesecake and rush down with quack.
anyway, i'll be looking forward to seeing you in school!
:D

love you baby!
love you for letting me have an enjoying day!
love you for everything you've done!
and please take care of yourself, alright!

26.06.09

im so freaking tired!
my eyes are like "close the damn freaking eyes lid!"
anyway, im back from stayover + chalet.
haha.
went to quack's house to stay for.. 2 days 2 nights
main purpose is to watch movie!
but we only managed to watch 3 only, then gg. lol
-night at the museum 2
-bedtime stories
-xin fu kuai le (i think)
i need to guard myself if i ever go his house again!
and why stayover = tiao kia sia..
stupid bandung and barley zz..
lOl.

after that went to class chalet for maybe about 1 day 1 night.
-enjoyed the bbq, the hot dogs & chicken wings & most of all, marshmallow!
-watched alittle of mj
-watched alittle of blackjack
-played alittle of asshole tai di
-played a whole night of ah tan's itouch!
-entertained myself with itouch that i didnt sleep!
-no space anyway, haha.
-so fun :D touch touch touch~
yeah, thats about it.
ate breakfast with ky & gladys @ mcd!
i missed the breakfast so much!
then took 88 to bishan & 52 back home..
im so damn full now~

and poor baby!
fell down from the bus ._.
its not even a day after you left me and you injured yourself!
T_T

23.06.09

something of the past that we played during fnn coursework in the lab during sec 5!
and this is what i found while playing..
lOl can!
anyway, its a nice game :D

22.06.09

to be or not to be..

i just dont know how long more i can still take it.
maybe km is right,
but i just cant do it.
thats all i know....

21.06.09

its been so long since i woke up this early to attend something.. or do something.
even during sec sch, i dont wake up this early too.
took 187 down to zh pri then met sebas, zx, xy, kj, yz, ran, yj, jh & jw to take 966 down to marina then! walk to ecp.
sounds long!
took the water point @ futsal with xy, kj & zx.
gladys & ky, yz @ bowling alley.
jw, yj, jh, ran & sebas @ beach netball.
the sun is so strong today, that i got a tan at my back of the neck lah!
chui can..
after the whole event ended,
the guys went to kick some futsal before having dinner at bk.
cabbed down to lamsoon
then played all the way till lights off!
even though i didnt bring my shoe along.
soooooooo tired today!
felt like i was almost dying on the way back home.

anyway,
life's so tough when things happened.
and it always do.

20.06.09

i wish i could say i've enjoyed myself today,
unfortunately.. i didnt.
with things that are happening now,
if i said i actually enjoyed myself,
im definitely lying.
i really wish i did though..
afterall, it has been so long since i met the 2 of you.
theres so much to catch up on.
i wish i did join in the fun too, but i cant bring myself to.
its all in the head,
everything that im afraid of..
every single thing.

20.06.09

it would be nice,
if one particular day, it was raining
me and you,
kissing in the rain
and lets not run away from it.
if only..

19.06.09

thank you alicia! (:
love you loads!
come back soon alright!

goodnight.

18.06.09

mummy,
why do you give birth to me in the first place?
to someone who aint capable like sister.
someone so useless that she cant even do anything at all.
someone who is always hurting others instead,
making them suffer.
someone who aint smart.
someone who is hopeless.
someone who is lazy a hundred and zillion times.
someone who aint good at anything.
someone who wastes the earth's resources.
someone who always causes troubles.
someone whom you raised up just to waste your money and effort.
someone who doesnt listen to your words.
someone who acts against you.
someone whereby she wish she wasnt born in the first place.
even though this someone still loves you,
but why, mummy, why.
i feels like my heart is tearing apart..
that i wish i could just die the sooner the better.
mummy, it would have been better to let go of what you have been holding on to.
i wish i could have let go too,
of everything i have.

im sorry,
because im a huge disappointment to you.
i should have never stepped foot in your life in the first place.
its my fault..
but all i know is that i really love you deep in my heart.
i love you

17.06.09

if theres anything that anyone dont like about me,
just tell me!

change is all i can do for you now..
so stefanie chua!
change okay!
(:
jiayou jiayou jiayou!

17.06.09

我还能为你做些什么？

16.06.09

i really really hate myself,
for everything that i've done..
especially not knowing what to do,
after causing all these troubles.

16.06.09

歌曲：回到过去

一盏黄黄旧旧的灯
时间在旁闷不吭声
寂寞下手毫无分寸
不懂得轻重之分

沉默支撑跃过陌生
静静看着凌晨黄昏
你的身影
失去平衡慢慢下沉

黑暗已在空中盘旋
该往哪我看不见
也许爱在梦的另一端
无法存活在真实的空间

想回到过去
试着抱你在怀里
羞怯的脸带有一点稚气
想看你看的世界
想在你梦的画面
只要靠在一起就能感觉甜蜜

想回到过去
试着让故事继续
至少不再让你离我而去
分散时间的注意
这次会抱得更紧
这样挽留不知还来不来得及
想回到过去

思绪不断阻挡着回忆播放
盲目的追寻仍然空空荡荡
灰蒙蒙的夜晚睡意又不知躲到哪去
一转身孤单已躺在身旁

想回到过去
试着抱你在怀里
羞怯的脸带有一点稚气
想看你看的世界
想在你梦的画面
只要靠在一起就能感觉甜蜜

想回到过去
试着让故事继续
至少不再让你离我而去
分散时间的注意
这次会抱得更紧
这样挽留不知还来不来得及
想回到过去

沉默支撑跃过陌生
静静看着凌晨黄昏你的身影
失去平衡慢慢下沉
又回到过去

15.06.09

my baby companion ghost in ghost trapper!
woohoo! :D
SPIDER SOMEMORE!

why is it that things just doesnt feels the same anymore
it felt restricted..
maybe its just me again.
me and my stupid pea brain!

14.06.09

lalalalalalala~
i wonder wheres qq now.
._.

13.06.09

sentosa sentosa sentosa! :D
the feel of sand = nua~

12.06.09

yay!
common test is finally over, dammit!
LOL!

i miss playing volleyball.
i miss the time to sleep..
i miss slacking...
i miss rotting....
i miss my bed.....
i miss my pillow......
i miss my bolster.......
i miss my blanket........
i miss alicia too! so come back fast! :D
and most of all i miss quackquack!!!!!!!!!
<3

11.06.09

why is it that things can just come and go so easily..?

11.06.09

anyway, 1 paper left!
which is SPT!
die already! die die die!

im still hoping you had fun had fun had fun had fun!
had loads of fun!!!!!!
and youre making me jealous!
cause im not yet 21!
i wanna go oversea too ._.
and of all places, japan!!

miss you loads!
HEART you baby! :D

10.05.09

today felt unusual compared to normally..
it seems like,
a very quiet day without you.
somemore, today is only the first day of your trip.
i hope you had fun! :D
how i wish i can have send you off.. but then again, i think it would be a T.T one!
HAHAHA!

i wonder how xy actually lasts through even though they still skype and talk.
if i were in his shoe,
im sure to cry till i goes blind!
haha!
im that noob okay!

i wanna have a in-house swing!
and kel's house sounds very the big can!
i cant imagine two 3-rooms flat being knock down and becoming one.
anyway, na & marine pract down.
2 more to go!
gg for spt!
jiayou for som! :D

09.06.09

i hope time will pass slower for you so that you can enjoy all you can..
but im selfish, so i wish that my time will pass faster..
so that i can see you soon!
bon voyage-
take care & enjoy yourself baby!
(:

08.06.09

i dont wanna be a crybaby ._.
but i just cant help it..
i think too much, always at the wrong time.
maybe my brain cells are corrupted!
they wander everywhere,
and landed at the wrong spot when needed to be use.
stupid cells..
zz.

1 paper down, 3 more to go!

06.06.09

its okay,
its alright..
people do get angry now or then,
so its really okay and alright to vent it out!
(:
tell me about it if you want, vent it if you dont mind.
just tell me that youre pissed beforehand,
and thats all it takes,
for i will be there to listen while you vent it out.
its alright, baby.. really!
:D

5th june 2009 - happy 2nd month!
hope you like the little prezzie. (:
❤baby